Who am I?
I am nothing but experience.
I've always had hard time realizing the observer and the observed or experience and the experiencer which JK(Jiddu Krishnamurthy) keeps mentioning.
I still have not realized it but I understand the concept intellectually and have observed it in myself and agree it as a fact.
While returning to my home walking bare foot I was pondering on this and came to realize this, as in I came across a valid point(idk how to express or explain this as I don't want to call it a realization), while thinking about what am I actually.
Because the things that go on in the mind is not real and I accept it because it is a fact and though I've not come to its realization, this fact has helped me a lot in many situations.
After reading and grasping few knowledge on this topic of 'Who am I' and spending time on it I know that 'I' is nothing but other's perspective as to who I am.
I tend to identify myself from what others have told about me or how they perceive me to be.
Which means that whatever I am is not the actual, it is just an image that I have gathered from my birth(or when my brain started to mature and understand things) till the present day. So this information about me is also a false one.
So then what is it that is there in this body? What is it that is breathing? What is it that is walking? Is there something that is living in this body? Because I don't feel alive when I am sleeping, I can only experience things in dreams but even then my body moves around while I am in deep sleep.
I had these thoughts as I was walking bare foot and each step I took I was able to feel the tar road, what is it that is feeling this? With each breathe I asked, what is it that is breathing? What is it that is seeing? What is it that is hearing?
If there is something inside which is separate then we should be able to feel that separation physically as well.
I thought about the experiencer and the experience statement by JK and I gave this another try.
I as a human am able to perceive things only with my sense organs - skin, ears, eyes, nose & tongue. If I do not have these then I cannot feel anything.
If my legs go numb then I can't feel anything that happens to my leg.
If I am blind then I cant see anything.
If I am deaf then I cant hear anything.
Think of ICU patients or those in coma, they're just there existing just like how we are unconscious while we are asleep.
So each step I take I feel it because I've the sensation from my skin and that makes me think that I am moving.
Meaning that the sensation is me, the I exists because of these experiences from the sense organs.
So I am nothing but these experiences that I get from these sense organs.
Now of course I have come about this as an intellectual realization or as a factual acceptance.
This would definitely be there in my sub-conscious and would be triggered when it would be required.